Is this what I want?

I feel lonely at home...
I don't like that kind of feeling...
I am quite sad...
I don't Know how am I going to tell this to my friends...
I don't even know if i shall tell them...
I really don't know if i am happy here...
He fell in love again...
I really don't know what is he thinking..
But i got bad feelings about all this things...
Sad...
He brought her home...
I guess he likes her...
and she also likes her...
I don't know if she really can be... ...
Even she can...
She is cannot be my real... ...
Sigh...
I am pretty sad here...
With my friends not knowing all this...( is also better they don't know)
With Him not knowing my feelings...
If she really is the one he love...
The only thing i can do is accept her...
Life is complicated...
Oh well...
She is good to me...
Good to everyone...
but i don't know why...
I just know that she is not the real one...

I got a feeling that i like him...
But not love...
I don't care anyway...
He is satisfied with me that's all I want...
I am always happy around him...
I just like him...
But not love...
I know him since when I am small...
I like him since small...
But i don't know if that is lovely...
hope is not...
Cuz i really don't want that to happen...