exam so important meh?more important than my life?

exam exam exam...
everyday oso say ur exam no pass no nit go ballet bla bla bla...
i really gt preasure tis way u know!?
u duno never mind...
i read book u oso scold me...
i no read u oso scold...
so i read book oso got rong la...
i very hardworking edi u some more treat me tis way...
i not important 1 rite!?
better i die la...
my sis no read juz the week b4 exam use computer u can let her play 4 almost 3-4 hours...
me?
2 hours scold like wat...
i read book b4 playing my sis leh?
play b4 playing computer...
no wonder wat i say is wrong la...
i noe...
i very useless...
i very stupid...
i very lazy...
sis leh?
i std 4 tat time nt like her so bad...
although i drop class...
but i still when up!
i duno how is my sis going 2 go 4 upsr...
i dun even noe how her upsr going 2 b...
i bigger thn them...
tat means i nit 2 get more scold la?
so tat my sis noe tat reading book is oso a rong thing...
i worry u u scold me...
2 day the whole morning...
i read from 11 am till 2pm rest till 4pm continue read 1 more hour...
JUST SEJARAH!!!
in oder 2 pass...
later at nite still nit 2 read bm...
i really duno how am i going 2 survive in tis family wif presure!!!

why she like tat wan?

hate her...
always think tat she is the biggest...
halo u are juz 13 wqat biggest...
even u very pretty oso nt as pretty as other ppl la...
y u so perasan 1?
u noe i now very angry u de la...
some more wan sze they all oso dun like u la no brain...
oni u think they frez wif u...
2day wan borrow our book?
go die la...
u go ask selina they all 2 find ppl wan beat us some more 1 borrow our book...
u really no brain...
in our class no1 like u la...
u think u leng lui thn every1 like...
i tell u arhxx...
wan sze, me n wen li oso more leng lui than u...
u leh???
very big la i noe...
u noe now we are nt frez edi la...
bcuz tat day ur selina loh...
nt we wan hate u...
if tat day u stop her tell tat time when u c!!!
we now r at lease still frez...
u dun simply say thing 2 selina they all...
after if they really find me i go tell my kai jie thn u sure mati liao...
buang sekolah...
haha...
hate u 4eva de "best friend"
dun 4get wat i say here...
PERASAN GIRL!!!

time juz goes...

time juz goes like tat...

very fast oct edi...

haixx...

i oso duno how i get into oct...

oct edi la...

wan exam edi...

how?

wan die edi...

no chance juz gt 2 read book...

dun read can die...

if time can wait for me i sure will dance until crazy oni read book...

i juz like dancing...

no1 can stop me...

i alsoi dunno y...

now i 1 day no go oni very bord edi de...

haix...

mayb bcuz tat is the way...

duno...

in the future i will be wat i oso duno...

but i already think properly edi...

duno if he let...

haixx...

Anak Malaysia replay!!!

YES!!!
Anak Malaysia replay!!!
haha
very happy...
this time somemore without my sis...
haha....
without my sis i will be very peaceful...
hate her...
always make noise here n there...
now without her i happy hapy lo!!!
haha....
but anak m'sia repeat i lagi happy thn without her...
yeah!!!
but the prob is...
the ppl is nt enough like tat...
oni gt 4 ppl when i last noe...
now i still duno...
2nite i go n c c gt enough ppl a not...
if no enough ppl i scare they will cancel our part...
very scare leh...
duno will tat happen...
mostly no gua...
cuz if no us they will nt enough ppl de...
haha...
i think i think 2 much edi...
without us they really wat oso cannot do de...
so they wun cancel us de...
the most is add new de ppl oni...
c 1st la...
next week practice oni say how la...
c how mah lao shi decide...
he wat oso can think of de...
including cancel us...
duno la...
if 1 cancel thn mayb next year we oso no chance 2 go up stage edi...
T^T
sad...
hope he no cancel la...
hehe gud luck lo Low Jun Lee...

some boring holidays...

YEAH!!!Is holiday again!!!
holiday...
boring time...
i boring til everyday play computer edi still so boring...
read book...
wanna sleep...
something else oso..
stupid liew zi qing make me mad n mad...
grr...
hate her...
holidays really bord...
my sis not bord at all duno why...
crazy jor...
^o^
oni bord...
mayb cuz they still small la...
big de 2 big oso...
oni me in the hse medium medium de...
hehe...
duno leh hor?
bord means bord la...
no excuses...
read book oso can bord...
play com oso can bord...
duno do wat oni no bord..
oni thing is meet frez...
hehe...
ballet frez...
happy!!!
hehe
HARI RAYA still gt many more days holiday...
n oso many more days 2 sleep...
haha...
many more days 2 play...
many more book 2 read 2!! T^T
my sis no read bok oso can de...
i no read bok cannot de...
T^T
very ke lian de me...
haix...
holiday like tat de la...
go skul oso like tat de la...
no chance...
tis is my life...
my life sure can change de by myself...
^o^
HAPPYHOLIDAY EVERYBODY!!!

HATE LIEW ZI QING!!!

HATE!!!!HATE!!!HATE HER!!!
HATE LIEW ZI QING!!!
She wanna noe why i hate her can...
ask her ownselve ask la if u all really her frez...
help her ask is oso nt a way...
The only way tat i wan is:
1) ask her ownself ask
tat is only the 1st step
the thing is going 2 be more n more complicated...
if she ask herself i mayb will nt b so angry...
instead she ask her frez 2 help her make me more angry...
i duno her edi la...
if she 1 2 b frez bac wif me she muz change her atitude...
instead of i say sorry 2 her she muz say sory 2 me...
the way she treat me b4 i really angry...
haixx...
i really very sad the way u behave...
u muz change...
change...
change is the oni way 4 u now...
please wake up...
u r not small edi...
please la...

dancing is really life for me...

Dancing is a very fun thing for me...
Sometimes...
I really want to dance...
but...
my dancing skills...
i only have ballet dancing skill...
haixx...
dancing have many kind of dance...
i duno which kind of dance i like...
Ballet?can but quiet bord edi...
Contempt?something like tat...
Latin? NO WAY!!!
I like the dance tat the professional dancers dance...
which is contempt+ little drama inside oso...
I like that...
i also wish 2 have somechance to be like them...
duno why my dad just say no...
haixx...
i vary sad...
sometimes i am thinking than if i cannot take tat as a job when i grow up what will i be?
a accountant like him?NO WAY!!!
a teacher?I hate book.
a manager?lagi teruk.
all i want is just a professional dancer...
that is my life means it is my choice...
just give me that chance...
PLEASE!!!
i like dancing...
dancing can express myself...
u want me stick on book is very difficult thing...
although i have bad result on study doesn't mean tat i cannot be other thing else...
i am nt useless...
yes, i am useless in the house, in study but not in dancing...
it really represent my life...
after those years of money i think tat is better i be a profesional dancer...
altough it can only earn very little but for me it is fun...
fun means i am happy wif it...
dancing will not get away from me and i will not get away from dancing...
^^

Allergic!!!

ALLERGIC!!!
The day before yesterday already start allergic already...
tat is after teakwondo...
dunno why whole body sweating...
but i didn't care it so i go n cook my maggi mee!!!
after eating start feeling ichiness...
so went 2 bath...
no use...
so i sleep lor...(2 ichi)
wake up my my body like all mosqitue bite...
so i scartch...
no choice 2 ichi...
i ask dad bring me go c doctor lor...
the doctor gib medicine so i go home eat...
nt so ichi edi...
next day...
lagi teruk...
tis time dad come bac from work he is the 1 hu ask me 2 go doctor...
so go doctor lur...
the doctor gib me injection :(...(very pain)
thn he add medicine...
till now still pain the inject...
but the allergic ok litle la...
hehe
pain oso nvm lo tis way...
^ o^...

school close!!!

OMG!!!
My school close!!!
hate it...
there is nothing to do other than day dreaming...
besides that...
have to go to school on the august holiday...
haixx...
this means that got holiday equal to no holiday...
grrr...
very angry of those people...
ask them dun go other country also cannot...
make until Malaysia also kenna...
now every part of Malaysia also kenna...
HATE!HATE!HATE!
Now do until my school also got ...
Hate!Hate them!

一场怪梦

今天，我起早把早就起来玩电脑。。。
我玩到有一点累了上床睡觉。。。
不知不觉我进入了梦乡里。。。
我梦到楼上的哥哥姐姐刚刚表演完。。。
然后我突然想到大马新传重演的事。。。
于是，我跑去他们休息的地方问念珊姐姐：“大马新传是不是会重演？”
她第一次答我说：“没有啊！”
我听了吓了一跳。。。
他再努力地想。。。
然后跟我说：“哦！对了！有！大马新传又重新演过！不过。。。你们青少年只演后面行李那一段。。。”
我原本听到前面的有时很开心听到后面时又被吓到。。。
我问她：“真的吗？”
她恩一声。。。
我听了感到很失望。。。
我就这样带着失望的心情走了。。。
走到一半。。。
我看到妹妹。。。
我转回头却又看不到她了。。。
我就走回我要走的路去。。。
突然。。。
我听到妹妹在叫我。。。
我转回头。。
看到她带着一个人。。。
我又看一下那个人。。。
我很熟她却又不知在哪里见过她。。。
看几下才知道是彭老师来的。。。
就这样我醒来了。。。

大马新传的最后一天

昨天是大马新传的最后一天。。。
我们大的都很不舍得。。。
唉。。。
真希望大马新传回再来一次。。。
想到是最后一天大得真的很不舍得。。。
昨天超过一半都哭。。。
我看了心酸。。。
像一次过把泪流出来。。。
却忍着泪。。。
能跟他们这一班专业舞团跳我真的很高兴。。。
我很希望以后能在和他们一起跳舞。。。
惟有的方法是靠我的梦想了。。。
我的梦想也就需要我的爸爸的允许才行。。。
唉。。。
我刚刚才知道。。。
每一样东西都有结束的一天。。。
昨晚。。。
听我朋友说。。。
大马新传会重演呢！！！
我听了很开心。。。
但心里还在挣扎。。。
明年。。。
他会不会在选我呢？
应该会吧。。。
希望会吧。。。
我很想再次和他们在一起跳舞。。。
就等明年吧！！！
如果我明年没有机会我怎得会很伤心。。。
也许。。。
我的梦想就只能靠表演来证明自己是行的。。。
也可以让爸爸从我的表演中看到自己的女儿的梦想。。。
是真的。。。
我会成为一个专业舞蹈者。。。
你们等我吧！！！
多等几年而已。。。
很快的。。。
我会做到的。。。
一定做到的。。。
我可以证明给我爸爸。。。
我真的是爱上跳舞了。。。

suddenly,i feel i like dancing but nt ballet

All of the sudden...
i feel that i wil be happy if my job is professional dancer...
i look at those professional dancers dancing so nice...
i really wanna be a professional dancer...
but 2 bad...
my luck is no gud...
my dad will nt let me do tat as a job...
haixx...
if only i can prove to him that i really hope 2 be a profesional dancer...
i saw them dancing yesterday...
they laugh until very happy then they can start act 2 cry...
so professional...
haixx...
if only god will give me that chance 2 be a proffesional dancer...
i really hope 2 be 1 of them...
and i can dance like them....
yesterday...
the teacher ask us to dance like very poor,very hungry,kenna virus like tat...
when i act with the music...
i only realize that crying is not difficult if u really get into the music...
even laughing...
we juz muz get into music n dance...
it is nt hard at all...
the music controls us nt we control the music...
the music bring us into the dance not we dance ourselves...
music is important...
we get feeling from it...
it is easy 2 get feeling from the music if we juz concentrate on the music...
but for ballet...
no!!!
music cannot controll us...
we muz control music...
i dunno y...
i think is bcuz it is hard in ballet when the music is soft we nit still 2 have smiling faces...
all of the sudden i juz hope 2 dance not juz ballet...
is normal dance...
like those proffesional dancers...
if only i can b 1 of them...
if i have that chance i will never let it go...
even if i dun have that chance will not give up so easily...
i will ask n ask him...
juz dono y he dun let...
dancing is already part of my life...
reading book 4 me is zero....
even if u ask me 2 read book i will read....
but i will use another way 2 ask u...
keke...
that is if u wan me 2 read book u muz let me be a proffesional dancer...
i will wait for ur ans...
dancing is already part of my life i cannot let it go so easily...

FREINDSHIP???

友谊值得相信吗？
前几天。。。
我跟我朋友在一起。。。
没想到。。。
他们竟然抛弃我在一边。。。
根本没有一个人肯陪我。。。
我很伤心。。。
以前我跟他们不是这样的。。。
不知怎的。。。
我们去吃炮兵。。。
两个去买东西不让我去。。。
其他四个又在那边拍拖。。。
我一个人坐在sofa上。。
不知道他们是不是生气我。。。
我真的不知道我又没有错。。。
今天。。。
我说我要跟他们去诳街。。。
我觉得她们有点不爽我。。。
最终还是给我去。。。
不过要我ponteng teakwando。。。
我说算了。。。
就这样。。。
不知道他们是否不爽我。。。
我觉得她们越来越过分了。。。
唱歌比赛又要我去。。。
又在讲我的鼻音。。。
我不断地想。。。
我的鼻音并没有他那么重为什么就只针对我一个人。。。
很过分裂！！！
爱算了吧！！！
反正都要当朋友。。。
就只能任咯~~

I am really useless!!!

haixx..
ytd...
at might...
me...
haixx...
i am juz useless la!!!
ytd night...
up stairs gt comb de marhxx...
he ntg 2 do ask me where is the comb...
i tell him upstairs gt...
he say tat all the comb is down stairs edi...
i tell him upstairs gt...
he scold me without ani reason...
i ran upstairs...
brought 2 comb down...
he ask me where i find those comb
i say upstairs...
he scold me...
thn my sis buzy body...
she go take out down stairs comb...
she ask him is it tat comb...
he say bring upstiairs...
now down stairs dun have comb at all edi...
bcuz of her lo!!!
n down stairs no nit comb hair edi...
i wanna scold her edi...
i sold her little...
she scold back me...
i really dunno wat 2 do..
dunno wat happen he went out...
i get even angrier...
in my hurt i think like tat edi...
downstairs no comb my sis tie my hair...
u angry me get out off the hse dun ever come back...
i am really useless...
haixx....
hu think i gt use?
nobody...
my ballet no gud...
study no gud...
family hate me...
my frenz oso like starting 2 hate me edi...
i care of them...
hu care of me?
no wan...
wat is the use of me?
i juz noe tat i am useless...

singing competition

2day i go 4 singing comp wif my fren...(i dun wan de lu~~)
haixx...i
dunno wat is the result...
we went in there saw 2 cute teachers...
they very leng lui lo...
nt like me so ugly...
i saw them......
then we sing....
dunno bcuz of wat i am nt so scare of singing edi...
dunno izzit the teacher leng lui...
or izzit bcuz we are the last 1 2 sing...
it is quite fun...
i still remember when i std5 tat time gt no 1 in singing comp leh...
so happy tat time...
hehe...
dunno now izzit the same as last time...
hope so la...
hehee!!!
gud luck lo...
^^

now i feel like...

I feel like...
i feel like...
I feel another thing...
i feel like i am useless in tis hse...
every time they do wrong i get scold...
i hate them...
i dun like them 2 treat me like tat...
i feel another thing again...
i feel like...
i have frenzz....
i feel very happy for this...
if i dun have frenzz...
i am lonley 4 eva...
they make me smile happy...
i am very happy wif them...
i feel more things...
i feel like i am nt the bigget in the hse...
i feel like i have a sis...
although tat sis is nt real sis...
bt tat sis is my oni person 2 trust...
^^
she takes care of me...
make me happy...
make me smart...
n more!!!
i still feel the last thing...
n is the most important thing...
I HATE BALLET!!!
juz bcuz of her...
i hate ballet...
i wanna stop it...
i waste money all by myself 2 buy those shoe...
she treat me badly...
nt oni bcuz of her...
is oso bcuz of him!!!
always say waste money waste money...
i use my own money 2 buy those things...
u still say expensive bla bla bla...
since u dun like 2 waste money let me stop la...
u dun wan waste money marhxx...
stop la...
easiest way...
i no nit suffer...
concentrate on study...
enough 4 u edi...
bcuz i like ballet u wanna stop me...
when i say i wanna stop u say dun wan...
u wan me do wat o?
in my future ballet is more expensive...
n i will stop it sooner or later wan la...
so it is better 2 stop rite now...
it is really going me crazy...
4 dancing 4days in a week...
i am oso tire...
so...
JUZ STOP IT!!!

i am useless

2day...
i go for tuition in the morning...
U n the others go for shopping...
no buy food 4 me...
i dunno y...
am i nt a person in this family?
i go back from tuition juz wanna go in n open the door the dog run out...
u scold me...
i thought i gt food 2 eat...
there is nt ani lunch for me on top of the table...
i angry off u...
go upstairs do my hw...
revision...
i lock myself in the room...
u dun even wanna bother me...
what am i in this hse 2 u...
ghost?
or invisible?
i help u do so many things...
i did wrong a little oni...
u scold me until crazy...
i really dun udt u...
y u treat me this way?
i am stupid la..
i noe...
no nit scold me stupid la....
i very useless la...
i noe la...
i noe edi la...
no nid talk so much la..
i am the biggest 1 n the totaly useless 1..
u dun nit me oso can la...
i noe...
i noe u no nit me oso can...
u nit the 3rd 1 oni...
the 1st 1 is complitely ntg...
the 2nd 1 oni noe how 2 create problem...
so tat she can b atractive...
me...
i dun wan anithing...
i wan u oni...
n u treat me like ntg...
so wat is the use of the biggest 1...
Biggest is always suffering u noe?
all the big ones r suffering...
n yet thier family r still torchering them...
1st 1 always ntg...
wanna b atractive bt nt enough attractive...
always the 1 2 get scold...

i hope 2 stop ballet rite now!!!

ballet...
ballet...
ballet
everyday oso ballet...
i am really going crazy on ballet...
it give me preasure...
i really hope i can stop ballet...
stop everything
after tis grade exam...
i dunno if i can pass or nt...
i juz wanna stop ballet...
after tis exam i will stop it if i can...
i wanna go exam oso cannot...
sis the point learning ballet?
it is my favourite thing...
bt with that teacher...
it will be my hate...
i like it...
bt i hate it...
i like it bt it iz 2 though...
everytime sweating for nothing...
so wat is the point?
sweat for nothing is juz useless...
she wun let me sit 4 exam...
i sit 4 exam every year...
she dun let me sit for exam this year...
my sis she let dun let me...
luckily my sis is small...
or else...
she will be same grade as me on next year...
wat a shame...
ballet juz stop thinking of ballet...

Come back juz get scold...

I am worry when u r nt here...
when u r here i get scold...
so...
better u r nt here...
U come back oni i already get scold...
say me here n there...
y?
i do wat wrong...
always say i rde oni i rude mie?
in this hse oni i rude mie?
my sis very good la...
oni me marhxx...
ya lo oni me...
haixx...
always the biggest is no gud de...
oni get scold...
always use 2 b n object of experiment...
always the 1st 1 2 do thing...
always get scold...
always cannot get tis n tat...
protect ppl somemore kenna marah...
i really hate my selve...
i am useless!!!
I AM USELESS!!!
u noe?
i hate myselve....
i am ugly,
rude,
stupid,
USELESS!!!

Wat is thee meaning of love???

Love here, love there...
My fren all oso gt the ppl tat they love already...
i really 1 2 find 1 too!!!
Bt...
Wat is the meaning of love?
The meaning is...
The ppl hu love u will take care off u...
give love 2 u...
The person that u trust...
n...
The person that trust u...
Also is the person hu worry about u...
send u home...
always hold on ur hand...
BT!!!
Dun u think tat it is easy 2 handle love when u r much more easier?
love oso is a waste of time...
bcuz of love ur result will drop...
love...
is so long time till i have love...
is juz that when it is time love will come n help u...
bt now!?
dun't u think it is juz 2 early?
no!?
i think it is 2 early...
well...
different ppl have different type of style by seeing love this 4 words...
is ur own choice...
only urs...
i can't help u...
mayb is bcuz ur time has come 2 love(bt nt true love gua...)

it is quite hard

Now only i know that it is so hard...
i thought mordern dance is so easy...
actualy is so hard!!!
omg...
ytd i went 4 modern dance...
2day my body pain!!!
lazy 2 go 2 ballet class...
of course i cannot bcuz i like ballet...
4 modern dance is actually almost same like ballet....
bt....
i dunno y...
is juz faster thn ballet a little...
n is like i completely cannot catch up...
omg....
bt the teacher hu is teaching us is...
a person of 'so u think u can dance' finalist....
isn't tat cool!?
it is very hard...
haixx...
dunno if i can catch up next week....
lazy 2 go leh...
ms gan loh...
muz go muz go...
or else nit gib RM10....
she say use her own money 2 go invite de...
so go lo...
after all is expensive...
i dunno if other ppl like her...
i mean miss gan...
i juz think tat ppl hate her...
which i dun like ppl hate her...
haixx...
try my bext lo!!!
gambateh...

Why u wanna stop ballet!?

Why u wanna stop ballet!?
I din stop yet thn u stop edi......
I really dun understand......
I really dun understand......
Why?
Why u think that ballet is juz stressing u?
ballet is actually suspose 2 b making u more happy!!!
Y u suddenly pop out tat u wanna stop ballet?
I really dun understand......
I oso dun really like ballet...
Cuz it is though......
But y i can like it when it is thogh?
Y u juz dun like ballet......
Although it is though but......
It is not that though right?
U r juz wasting ur time n money last time.....
haixx......
Aniway......
It is ur choice 2 choose 4 wat u wan......
Only urs......
If u really say no......
Thn I have no choice......
Cuz even the teacher oso nt as fierce as mine......
I have no chance thn juz letting it go......
Cuz is nt my choice......
Its urs......
Only urs......
That is juz all i can say......